Botham Jean's sister shares story of her family's grief in new book

Botham Jean's sister shares story of her family's grief

The sister of Botham Jean, the man who was murdered by former Dallas police officer Amber Guyger, is sharing her family’s story of grief in a new book.

DALLAS - The sister of Botham Jean is sharing her family’s story of grief after her brother was murdered by a Dallas police officer.

Allisa Charles-Findley’s book "After Botham: Healing from My Brother’s Murder by a Police Officer" comes out nearly five years to the date that he was killed.

On Sept. 6, 2019, then-Dallas police officer Amber Guyger shot and killed Jean as he was watching TV in his apartment.

Guyger claimed she thought she was walking into her own apartment and mistakenly believed Jean was a burglar.

In her book, Jean’s sister shares how her family fought through their anger and grief.

She said she was extremely close to her brother, and they spoke on the phone regularly, including on the night he was killed.

On Good Day, she said Guyger’s conviction did not bring much peace to her family.

"I expected more. I prayed for a murder conviction for Botham's killer. But when it came, you know sometimes when you win a victory, you gain something. And nothing was gained. All I wanted was my brother back and that wasn't happening. So, it was a bittersweet feeling," Charles-Findley said.

She still carries her brother with her everywhere she goes.

Botham Jean's sister on grief, acceptance & her book

Allisa Charles-Findley, Botham Jean's sister, sits down to discuss her brother's death at the hands of former police officer Amber Guyger, what she felt when Guyger was convicted and the stories about her brother in her new book "After Botham."

"At home, I have pictures of him. In the morning, I tell him good morning because it’s really hard to move on without that person, especially someone who was a constant in your life," she said.

Guyger's murder trial brought international attention. She was found guilty and sentenced to ten years in prison.

Younger brother Brandt brought everyone in Judge Tammy Kemp’s courtroom to tears when he forgave Guyger and tightly embrace her.

"I commend him for getting there for being there for releasing the anger and realizing you know the resentment," Charles-Findley said.

But for some in the family, that anger continued with Guyger's post-conviction appeal. Her attorneys argued the evidence was there to support her mistake-of-fact defense and that the jury got it wrong.

The state's highest appeals court disagreed, and the conviction was upheld.

Charles-Findley says she has not been able to forgive Guyger yet.

"When it comes to forgiveness for me, I don't see a person remorseful when it comes to Amber Guyger. No, I haven't forgiven her. I'm not forcing it. If it happens, it will happen in time. But no. I'm not there yet."

Charles-Findley will speak at a TEDx event Saturday at 11 a.m. at the Alamo Theater on Botham Jean Boulevard just outside Downtown Dallas.

The Botham Jean Foundation’s annual Red Tie Gala is also coming up on Sept. 30 at the Renaissance Hotel in Addison.

Charles-Findley runs that foundation to promote social change.